penned down
Friday, January 22, 2010
-4:23 AM
.. jsem se vrátila, a oprášila svou malou blogovou stránečku. Ani jsem to neplánovala, ale jak už vím, tak život přináší sebou nejen věci plánované- ale i neplánované!
Ted' momentálně trávím většinu času doma, zkoušky mám za sebou, a zatím to vše klape podle mých představ- samé jedničky! Ted' mám ještě tak tři tejdny na užívání si a pak hajdy zpátky do školičky se učiti nové vědomosti.
Mám asi všechno co si můžu přát.. moc fajn kamarády, fajn bydlení u babičky, fajn kluka s kým si dopisuju, fajn klienty na doučování angličtiny, fajn literaturu na čtení.. Jsem za to všechno moc a moc vděčná. Děkuji Ti Světe.
Sunday, June 7, 2009
-4:29 PM
Hello-Ahoj.
This is Luce the Bruce blogging again. From a new country, a different land.
Interesting.
Fascinating.
Reminiscing.
And I'm talking nonsense. Hahaha. Psychotic.
To je parodie, tuto. Zase nevím co dřív, potřebuju si urovnat myšlenky v hlavě. Look at the big picture. Vím, že jsem dost choosy, ale ve volbě partnera je to životně důležitý!!! Musím se s nim cítit dobře, že si opravdu rozumíme. Že to spěje k n'áké budoucnosti, nemám zájem o krátké románky které jenom nahlodají srdíčko. Kurník.
Možná je dobro brát věci s troškou nadhledu. Jsem pěkná holka, takže kluci se o mně logicky budou zajímat. Mám ideály. Svůj preferovaný způsob života, spojený se sportem a přírodou. Jsem vzdělaná, chci to někam dotáhnout. Mám tu luxury si trochu vybírat, zvlášt' až začnu chodit v říjnu do školy. Tam se určitě nepochybně setkám také se zajímavými kluky, kteří to někam dotáhnou. Hmm.
Toto všechno je úvaha na téma- kluk. Jaký by asi tak měl být a nebýt.
Jestli se mám řídit podle srdce nebo rozumu. Tak moc bych chtěla poznat opravdovou lásku! Možná bych měla allow more time na to aby se vztah rozvíjel. Ale zase něco deep down mi říká, že to neni vono. Že mi na tom vztahu kdesi něco vadí. Předsudky? Obava z mlčenlivosti? Naprostě rozdílné pohledy na svět? (ted' jsem si uvědomila, že takto si docela dobře procvičuju český sloh:))
Někteří říkají, že láska je slepá. Že si nevybírá. Prostě udeří, a je vymalováno. Tot'.
Tak to asi nebude láska na první pohled, já to všechno zvažuju podruhé, potřetí, a popadesáté. Dokola dokola dokolečka. Round and round on the roundabout. Hah.
Maybe I think too much? Proč nenechat události plynout? Právě proto, že chci aby mi všechno do puntíku sedlo. Aby to bylo osudový. Aby to nemělo ten všudypřítomnej háček. Je to ale vůbec možný, aby to tak bylo?
Vztahy by neměly být a chore. Měly by být plné radosti a porozumnění, když se dva lidé setkají. Taky by ale neměly být vtěsnány a přetvářeny, aby se vešly do malého kamrlíku. Když se nedaří, myslím, že je lepší s nima přestat a začít znovu. Asi je to tak lepší pro obě strany.
Ale, as I said, možná o tom moc přemýšlím. Maybe I think too much?
Tak čau Honzo.
<3 ??
Monday, April 13, 2009
-3:23 AM
Goodness, how long has it been? I have been absent for ages from my blog!! This would have been unthinkable during the school hols. Eh. But times are changing.
I'm in a rather pissed mood today. Mostly pissed at myself cos my slothiness is annoying me. When im trying to be busy.
And my ass is growing bigger too. Help!! I might have to fork out another thousand crowns for three months at the gym.
As you might have deduced, Lucie is a rather stressed person, for stupid reasons. Mostly social ones, which consist of visiting friends and acquaintances. How i wished i could be funnier and could have more things to talk about. It annoys me to be the wallflower, but try hard as i might, often i cant come up with a witty thing to say. So i just TRY to make my speech sound normal, but still end up forgetting words and coming out lame. Fuck it.
Lucie wishes everyone a happy Easter, with LOTS of chocolate!
Sunday, February 8, 2009
-8:45 PM
10 things that i like about my life here at the moment- I get to wear my new white winter jacket with fake fur without drowning in perspiration.
- I get to be a connoisseur of my grandma's splendid czech cooking.
- I get to explore uncharted territory all around.
- I get to see those relatives whom i haven't seen in centuries.
- I get to make decisions about my own life without excessive meddling by my parents.
- I get to enjoy winter sports.
- I get to buy my favourite czech brand of dark chocolate.
- I get to do my driving license (soon).
- I get to really enjoy hot tea.
- I get to enjoy the varied political scene here (tsk the crazy antics that politicians can do!!)
and another 10 things that could be improved:- I'd like to hang out with a close group of friends.
- I wish the university would stop failing my artwork.
- I'd like to meet the guy of my dreams.
- I'd like to improve my attitude to teaching english.
- I'd like to tell myself that i'm not getting lazier.
- I miss some of my Singapore friends.
- I do feel lonely sometimes.
- I'd like to improve my command of czech (better, but still quite rusty)
- I need to eliminate my moodswings.
- I need to know that i belong here, to find my own little sphere of influence.
Period.
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
-1:31 AM
I was DAMN FRUSTRATED today, even teteering near the brink of depression. Suddenly it seems like there are so many things to do, and so many people to please, so many things to study, to sort out in my brain.. IQ.. EQ.. Argh.
All for the simple reason that i have started to give english tuition and conversation lessons to 3 or 4 people a week. It doesnt look like a lot, but the worst thing is preparing the lesson, as each of the peeps has their own needs.. one doesnt like to use the textbook, another one requires scientific articles to analyse (i'll have to go to the library here and use their copy facility to photocopy Newsweek articles). And some of them think that paying me 200 crowns an hour is too much. That's the equevalent to 13.80 SGD. Not too horrible, right???
For a tutor who passed her Certificate in Proficiency in English with an A! CPE happens to be the toughest certificate in english offered worldwide by the British Council. But one snotty middle age lady still thinks 200 KC is too much to pay. Well, i'll have nothing to say to her if she continues like this. rawrr.
Annoying people.
Sunday, January 25, 2009
-4:45 AM
I just returned from an exciting weekend with my dad and his friends. Dad, being his wonderful and generous self treated me everything! I'm really thankful.
We discussed some sensitive issues concerning the tiffs he has with my aunt.. and i have to say that i wholly agree with him.
Even though i feel in a rather uninspired mood today, which tinges on the pessimistic side, i know there are always things i can be grateful for, and really realise how blessed i am.
While on the train back to Plzen, i was watching the landscape whizz past and falling asleep-- and somehow or other i imagined what life would be like if i lost a leg (TOUCH WOOD!!).. reason being i fell flat on my face once when thundering down the slope, and knocked my knee painfully.
This kind of rumination and weighing all the 'if's' is a fairly common occurence in Lucie's brain nowadays. But most of the time i arrive at the conclusion that it's quite pointless and needlessly adding to my list of worries. After all, worries are one of the most subjective things around, so something that i may deem 'life-threatening' is just a 'prkotina' to anyone else. One just tends to blow things out of proportion.
All in all, life's alrite down here, but i miss the company of my friends. I've been able to get acquainted with some people here, but it will take a lot of searching yet to find a group of people that i can really click with.
I miss WeiWei, Nicole, Gabby, Elvis, Ilya.. hope you guys are living your life the way you want it! Loves <3
Monday, January 19, 2009
-6:16 PM
Welcome to Luce's blog, which has undergone a slight makeover!
On the occasion of myself moving to the czech republic, i will put a slightly different focus on my posts- first and foremost, i plan to share more of my thoughts and feelings regarding all my concerns and issues in here.. not just a mere depiction of the things i do. That's rather shallow i think. I find this new arrangement more emotionally satisfying ^^
Secondly, the new purpose of my blog is also to keep brushing up my english, and to ensure that i won't forget what i have spent ten long years perfecting. That would be an unforgivable sin.
Thirdly, my move to Europe is a whole new start for me.. hence the reason for removing my older posts. I'll keep them archived in my computer somewhere. Where only i can get at them! hehe.
Fourthly, i changed the blogskin cos it appeared a little depressive to me lately- i like the flowers bcos they remind me of spring, and the good things to come, while retaining an elegant simplicity. A measure of careful optimism :)
I still do hope to keep in touch with all of you wonderful people in Singapore, so i'll be checking out your blogs regularly!
Dear visitor, you are also more than welcome to tag my blog, i'll be glad for't..
